I guess I m still the same..

Till sometime back I used to ask God to revert time by 3-4 years, but today while sitting in a bus I realized I haven't lost it all. 4 years back I used to think that there is a Super Man( apparently my boyfriend on phone) whom I would tell every thing and all will be fine..
But gradually I started realizing, Super Man is only a fiction character nothing more.
Another interesting discovery of the day was I share 10 similar points with Rogue, X men character.. Then thoughts about relationship, dedication, life kept coming back to the mind. After a while, all the characters from the pics( marriage or engagement pics of friends on Facebook), started showing their thumb to me, as if teasing what good I did and to whom by falling in a Ultra- Super distance relationship..

41 Degree temperature and the disturbing thoughts were about to make 3-4 hair white, I realized I have reached home and when I saw mum, the care and concern for me , I had forgotten everything by then. Her one touch on my forehead made me bid goodbye to the frustrating thoughts..
I am late in saying but indeed I realized she is the one who cured it all ( may be for sometime) -- Super man ..

Adventure is the word !!

I am never alone...

When failures become the order of the day, options disappear, every thing comes to a stand still and every one seems colluding against you. Tears well up in the eyes and every breath feels like a burden.
All these are very common symptoms yet we feel we the "specially cursed or unlucky one". I always wonder if there had been no failures then no successes would have found any relevance or significance in this world. The failure in life gives a better view of the success or the target. Tears do lighten up the bruised heart but can overshadow and blur the path to be followed to accomplish the target.
I have been spending days and nights contemplating over the wrongs I have done but realized I am in a better position to judge myself and take myself to the required path.
Apart from the friends, acquaintances, my failures and successes accompany me throughout the time. Success keeps enticing me for more fun and frolic while on the other failures collude with my conscience and keep reiterating what is wrong and what is right. I am not alone indeed !!!

Nerves of steel.. mercury running through the veins..body of iron ..standing with head held high... An Army man

I tell him I am going for a movie, he says he 's going out in the field..
I tell him I am getting bored for sitting idle the whole day, he says he stole few minutes to talk to me from his hectic schedule..
I tell him I am not in mood to eat food, he says he is feeling hungry because of the day's toil..
I tell him for a change I am going out with friends, he says he is having dinner and talking with his buddies(* and colleagues)..
I tell him I completed reading " The girl alone", he says has completed " Kargil from surprise to victory"..
I tell him I have fallen ill and I need you, he says he has fallen ill and I should enjoy my life and shouldn't wait for him.. move ahead..
I tell him my hand writing is poor so can't write well while he paints a card for me on my birthday even with a fracture..

U wanna know his style, check out his accessories
U wanna know his commitment, ask his pack of cigarette
U wanna his friendliness, ask his colleagues and buddy
U wanna know how much of a fighter he is, ask me ..:D
U wanna know his taste, catch him gorging on paani pooris any time
U wanna know how fast he is, check him out while he is driving the car..

I am talking about Major Raj..


I have known him for almost 3 years from now and it feels a lifetime already.. Most imperturbable person I have ever come across..
He stands firm to support everyone around .. including me who has always been at a distance of more than 1000 kms.. Have seen him hailing from Lieutenant and raising to the the post of Major (he got promoted soon !!)
We have talked, laughed, cried , shared and lived our lives mostly on phone, virtually indeed.. but I have created a virtual reality for myself in which however angry I may be with him or he with me but we know we are yardsticks for each other..
Oh man.. I owe him big time for the calls he used to make even from the remotest places in the country.. at times near the border... be it Jodhpur, Jaisalmer , Poonch and others..Being in Infantry therefore on the downside..NEVER has free time but some how always manages to miss good things in life ( read me) .. a great listener...has always been there for me..owe you big time for being the dumping ground for my anger.. One of the most organised guys I have met...is never in a mess unlike many others.Time flies when we start talking man, so does money.

Here's raising a toast to "MY MAN" ...

Completed 24 months @ Infosys

26 th May, 2008 : Reporting @ Infosys, Mysore Developement Center
26 th May, 2010 : Waiting for getting released from Infosys, Pune ( already resigned)

Twenty four months.. and so many experiences .. most of which I wish to forget..
Finally feeling relieved to go near home and pursue MBA.. long cherished dream of mum and dad...

Ambitions kept changing throughout this period..
When I started I wanted to do MBA and gradually I realized I should do Mtech.. soon studying for the IAS exam also struck me .. but after having a look at the syllabus... all myths were shattered...
Soon I started giving exams like DRDO and ISRO, thinking to become a Scientist..
then again started preparing for CAT and one fine day I registered the date for GRE and Toefel and planned to do PhD from US, 'coz now I wanted to become a lecturer..

Finally getting calls from universities in US with scholarship and also got call from IIM kozhikode, MDI and IMT. Back to square one, going to do MBA.

On the professional front things kept swaying with the winds while on the other hand personal life was a big void and vacuum. Though many people were around but as they say difficult to achieve things are everybody's fascination..

It was indeed an AGYAAT WAAS for me. I am happy that this wait is ending soon and the chapter of Infosys is a closed one for me..

Terrorist in different hues yet the same blood

4 CRPF jawans killed in West Bengal, encounter of two KNLF militants in Asssam, Chattisgarh still recuperating from the terror attack on 35 people including 14 SPOs, in Kashmir Indian Army haven't yet come over losing the two soldiers,Maoists blasted warehouse in Orissa and railway track in West Bengal.... Not just confined to India.. This distress is prevalent everywhere: be it Kyrgyztan declaring a state of emergency in the southern city of Jalalabad following clashes between rival ethnic groups and police that left two people dead or suicide attacks killing more than 20 in Kabul... All these news items are just for a day, i.e. 20 May. I may have missed many other news items also .. and it's just 9:23 am IST, many more incidents can happen till the clock strikes 12 midnight..

After contemplating over the SWOT(Strength, Weakness, Opportunities, Threats) analysis of India, not to my surprise I figured out soft attitude in dealing with the terror spreading mechanism as the greatest weakness and threats are of course from Naxalites, Ulfa, Bodo, Indian Mujjahidien and the list continues..

The Central Government is still shying away from tagging the naxalites as Terrorists, yesterday though the Chattisgarh CM Raman Singh agreed on this labeling. In the past 10 years in Chattisgarh, the ultras killed more than 1000 civilians and more than 650 policemen besides blowing up 132 electric towers, 106 school buildings and three hospitals in the state, as mentioned by the CM. Are we waiting for the worse to happen? 6 th April Dantewadi incident had dumbfounded almost everyone who underestimated the mass destruction that the ultras are capable of doing.

As it goes that sick or injured animals are taken care of not the cannibals and the wild coz they need to be slained down..
Peace talks and negotiations with the anti-social elements are boosting their will to disrupt the democratic and secular machinery of our country. DETERENCE is the need of the hour. Even though the snake or a tiger may be innocous but their deterence only half kills their preys.


Time to go for hunting down the terrorists..

Deleting my previous posts